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i know its hard to believe that someone could possibly have been anti-social for so long that theyre still learning the basics of social grace long after they shouldve learned it, but that is the case here.

still, i know im being obnoxious by insisting for help, and that’s not what i wanna do.

And Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment. And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.

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—	mark 12:29-31

You lust, and have not: you kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: you fight and war, yet you have not, because you ask not.

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—	James 4:2 i don’t think im asking a lot. if i couldve figured out how to word stuff on my own, i prolly wouldve done it by now. it just really helps if ppl try to work together.

can i get some help with this please?

i dont care from who. cuz, like ive said before, ppl get frustrated when they are confused. what is this secret that i am missing and why am i not allowed to know?

God made us in his image, so we all are who we are. and i cant help it if i feel like stuff like worrying about appearances—y’know, being fashionable with the hair and clothes and…—is vain. decent is good enough for me. and stuff like popularity: also vain. and being money grubbin, and ass kissin, and lying, and scheming, is disgusting. and that i have no interest in it. and i make that known, because im a free spirit. and us free spirits…you take our freedom away, we’ll die.

so if solitude is what its gotta be to have my freedom, then so be it.

and if i have to be ridiculed to find somebody who can understand me, then so be that too.

i dont give a fuh what you think, cuz worrying about appearances is vain.

Moses said to God, “Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what shall I tell them?”

God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”

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—	exodus 3:13-14

For John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, ‘He has a demon.’ The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, ‘Here is a glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and “sinners.”’ But wisdom is proved right by her actions.

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—	matthew 11:18-19

Face to Face

Vex is a lot bigger than the rest of my characters so first meetings are pretty tense for him. Fortunately for Que, he’s not an aggressive animal and will only attack if need be. Though, being two completely different creatures, it’s hard for each to tell what will provoke the other.

Que represents vengeance. Ppl really like to push me to go there.

“‘Vengeance is mine’ saith the Lord.”

“that’s life” ive been known that

at least i dont do nothing about it thus adding to the problem. even tho ppl like to try and make it as difficult as possible.

if anything, i think that’s my biggest defining factor and probably the root of my dividing factor making me unable to interact with ppl without a lot of problems. but it makes me feel good about myself, so i can live with it.

i can only imagine it’s nice to be understood

that’s all i want. i don’t want anything else.

i just want one person who can understand me, i dont care who. not just on this, but me as a person. that’s why i go to such lengths to express myself cuz there’s no other way it’s gonna be possible. they don’t have to agree; just understand.

i don’t want nothing else.

and all i can do is pour my heart out to the world in the slim hope that i might come across someone.